Just got back from King’s Dominion…. maybe I’ll write about it tomorrow… long day… am tired.

Anyway, for now, I will post a song that was stuck in my head earlier today…

“Life and love and why.
Child, adult, then die.
All of your hoping and
All of your searching for what?
Ask me for what am I living
Or what gives me strength
That I’m willing to die for?

Take away from me
This monstrosity.
‘Cause my futile thinking’s
Not gonna solve nothing tonight.
Ask me for what am I living
Or what gives me strength
That I’m willing to die for?

Could it be this?
Could this be bliss?
Could it be all that I ever had missed?
Could it be true?
Can life be new?
And can I be used?
Can I be used?

Give me a reason for life and for death.
And a reason for drowning while I hold my breath.
There’s something to laugh at,
A reason to cry.
With everyone hopeless and hoping for something to hope for.
Yeah, with something to hope for.

Could it be true?
Can life be new?
Could it be all that I am is in You?
COuld it be this?
Could it be bliss?
Can it be You?
Can it be You?”

-“Life and Love and Why,” by Switchfoot

Well, several days since an actual post. That was certainly interesting.

And now for a lesson in “beliefs vs. opinion vs. reality”.

It is true. Beliefs do not determine reality. Actually, that is one of my favorite quotes. Nor do opinions determine reality. Just because you believe something that doesn’t mean that it is true. You can believe it as hard as you want for as long as you want, but regardless, it will not be true, unless it was already true to begin with.

However, you also have to remember that truth exists. SOMETHING is true. Either God exists or God does not exist. One of those 2 statements is true, and it cannot go both ways. Therefore, if I believe that God exists, and you do not believe that God exists, one of us is right, and the other one is wrong. One of the 2 options is reality.

Now, if God exists, and I know that He exists, I should think that I should try and tell other people that He exists. I should think that other people would want to know that He exists.

In the same way, this works with lots of things. Abortion. Either it is murder, or it is not murder. It can’t be both, and it is not a matter of opinion, it is a matter of belief. There is a difference. Opinions are beliefs that are not built on facts, whereas beliefs can very often be built on facts. One of the beliefs is right. Either I’m right and you’re wrong, or you’re right, and I’m wrong.

And of course, the same goes for the pornography issue.

Do not tell me not to impose my beliefs on you, because I could very well be right. At somepoint, someone “believed” genocide to be wrong. By your logic of not imposing beliefs on others, who are you to say that genocide is, in fact, wrong? Hitler certainly had no problem whatsoever with genocide. Who are we to judge and condemn, and impose OUR BELIEFS on him, right? And don’t say it’s not the same thing, because it is. They are both beliefs as to whether something is right or wrong.

Hmmm… something to think about.

On a totally unrelated note to what has been mentioned here recently, I have just learned today that apparently the FBI is investigating my neighbor’s in regards to drug trafficing, etc… apparently some big dealers have been supplying them… and apparently some stuff has happened recently. I’m not too sure whether it involves the parents, or the kids there, but either way it’s really pathetic and sad. I kinda know the kids, used to hang out with them, but, they’re somewhat younger then me, and have obviously chosen a different path of life, so while I see them around sometimes, hanging out with them doesn’t really happen. But yeah, there is certainly potential for so much more, and you hate to see someone throw their life away… but uhh.. yeah, FBI. Makes this little piece of MD seem a little more important all of the sudden, eh?

On yet another completely unrelated note, I am either tonight or tomorrow, going to start another site. A site which no one will know is mine. A site on which I can post whatever the heck I want, because no one else will know who I am or what I am talking about. Not that I don’t do that most of the time here anyway, but I have learned that sometimes it is best to restrain, and sometimes I push the limits and whenever I do I worry about it 😉 so.. yeah. New site. You can look for it if you want, but you get no clues.

And now the post we’ve all been waiting for… that was supposed to be up yesterday and wasn’t… and that I am putting up today but almost wasn’t ;)…..


Abortion…

Right or wrong? why or why not? Hmmm… quite the debate. It’s a touchy subject, generally, but that’s ok, because I don’t mind offending people.

It all depends on how you define life, really. Consider this. If any speck of cell division at all were found on another planet, there would be huge announcements of how they found life on another world. If EXACTLY what is in a mother at conception was found on another planet, it would be life. However, abortionists would have you believe that it is NOT life. It’s just you know… some tissues. Most abortionists would point to the time when one is able to live on one’s own as the time that one is alive. Using this logic, one can say that at any time in one’s life when they are incapable of living on their own, they are not alive. How about people hooked up to respirators, or other medical equipment, which keeps them “alive”. They are not capable of living without the assistance of those machines, just as a child is not capable of living without the mother. And think about this, even after birth, a child cannot live on it’s own. Perhaps we shouldn’t consider someone “alive” until they are fully capable of supporting their own selves, in which case, personally, I have not yet reached the state of life yet.

So I think it is safe to say the only sane defintion of life we can give is that, for humans, it begins at conception.

That means that there is another life to take into consideration. For further evidence of this, they can now operate on the child while it is still in the womb. It is very much alive at that point.

Now, onto another point, only semi-related…. here is something I found on another website in regards to Planned Parenthood, and Margaret Sanger, it’s founder:

“I’ve heard that Planned Parenthood is pro-family, pro-life, and pro-child.

Their paid TV commercials say that, but their own official documents, their leaders, and their actions say quite the opposite. In 1976, the Planned Parenthood’s Five Year Plan (see reference above) laid out in detail what their goals were. We quote:

– Objective #2: “Reaffirming and protecting the legitimacy of induced abortion as a necessary back-up to contraceptive failure, and extending safe, dignified services to women who seek them.”

– Purpose: “To provide leadership in making . . . abortion and sterilization available and fully accessible to all.”

“The various activities that we undertake are not ‘separate’ and certainly not competing. Rather, they are all complementary parts of a single national strategy” (page 5).

“Services to be made available at all clinics include . . . abortion services (or local referral)” (emphasis in original, page 6).

– Program Emphasis #2: “Keeping abortions legal and accessible to all persons” (page 9).

Is their emphasis still on abortion?

Since the Five Year Plan above, the Planned Parenthood agenda is even more openly and militantly pro-abortion as outlined in their newest action agenda. For example, in Goal #3, they state that Planned Parent-hood will ” increase the number of Planned Parenthood affiliates providing early ambulatory abortion services.” Planned Parenthood of America, Til Victory is Won, 1982, 1984, p. 16

“To increase the availability and accessibility of high quality and affordable reproductive health care services [abortion]” PPFA Five Year Plan 1986-1990, preamble

“Until we reach the millennium . . . Planned Parent-hood will continue to provide not only sex education and contraception, but also abortion.” A. Moran, Exec. V.P., Planned Parenthood of New York City, New York Times, Dec. 27, 1982

[Planned Parenthood] is not just a social or medical service agency. It is part of a cause, a movement. One of the principles of Planned Parenthood is that reproductive freedom is indivisible. You either have it or not. Everybody has it or none has it.” Don Weintraub, V.P. for Int’l Affairs, PPFA, Madison, Mar. 12, 1985

Family Planning Associations should not use the absence of law or the existence of an unfavorable law as an excuse for inaction. Action outside the law, and even in violation of it, is part of the process of stimulating change . . . of fertility regulation services or specific methods.” Art. 106, p. 28, Int. P.P. Fed., Nov. 1983 Planned Parenthood has promoted a pro-abortion “comic book,” geared for teenagers, entitled Abortion Eve. On the back cover is a caricature of the “Assumption of the Blessed Virgin” depicting a pregnant Mary with the idiot face of Mad magazine’s Alfred E. Neumann. The caption says, “What, me worry?”

It is the policy of Planned Parenthood to insure that women have the right to seek and obtain safe legal abortions. Planned Parenthood has the responsibility to provide access to high-quality abortion services. . . . Federation Policies, PPFA, Jan. 1986

Faye Wattleton, Pres. of P.P., said, “I make it very clear. If you’re not clear where you stand on the abortion issue, if you’re worried that birth control for teenagers encourages promiscuity . . . this [P.P] is not the kind of outfit you’re comfortable with.” “The Faye Wattleton Comeback,” P. Span, Wash. Post, Oct. 14, 1987

Planned Parenthood has aggressively defended abortion rights in the courts in recent years, thus dropping any earlier pretense of neutrality. The most famous case was Casey vs. Planned Parenthood, a 1990 decision of the U.S. Supreme Court.

What does Planned Parenthood think of Right to Life?

They have an opinion.

“In every generation there exists a group of people so filled with bigotry and self-righteousness that they will resort to any means — even violence — to impose their views on society. Today, such fanatics dominate a movement ironically called ‘the Right-to-Life,’ a movement which threatens the most basic of all human rights.” Planned Parenthood Pamphlet, the Justice Fund, 810 7th Ave., New York, NY, 10019

But Margaret Sanger, its founder, opposed abortion.

Not so! Not only did she favor abortion, but she proposed forced sterilization for those whom she considered unfit to reproduce. She worked hard for a “race of thoroughbreds” until Hitler’s similar “Master Race” made that goal unpopular. She was a true eugenicist. For example, her April 1933 Birth Control Review, devoted an entire edition to eugenic sterilization.

Who did she consider unfit?

Black people, Jews, Southern European immigrants (especially Italians), but also others of “low I.Q.” These “feebleminded” people were a “menace to the race.” E. Drogin, Margaret Sanger: Father of Modern Society, CUL Publishers, 1980, Section 1, p. 18-24

This is hard to believe!

Margaret Sanger, the famous founder of Planned Parenthood, was supportive. She wanted “more children from the fit, less from the unfit.” Birth Control Review, vol. 3, no. 5, May 1919, p. 2

This wasn’t only related to contraceptive planning. A seditor, she printed grossly eugenic material, approving of Hitler’s sterilization program (see Into the Darkness, Nazi Germany Today, by L. Stoddard, p. 196). She believed that “Negroes and Southern Europeans were mentally inferior to native born Americans.” She found these people, Hebrews, and others “feebleminded,” “human weeds,” and called them a “menace to the race.” In 1933, her Birth Control Review devoted an entire edition to eugenic sterilization. Sanger’s famous “Plan for Peace” was almost the same as Hitler’s, even going beyond it to suggest, in essence, concentration camps.

“When the world realized the logical consequences of Hitler’s hereditarian-eugenic, totalitarian type of government, Margaret Sanger’s birth-control movement had to take a quick step away from its overt eugenic language.” E. Drogin, Margaret Sanger, Father of Modern Society, CUL Publications, 1979, p. 28

Tell me more.

Let us quote from her “Plan for Peace.” This was little more than peaceful genocide. She wanted the United States:

– “To keep the doors of immigration closed to the entrance of certain aliens whose condition is known to be detrimental to the stamina of the race, such as the feebleminded as determined by Stanford-Binet I.Q. tests.

– “To apply a stern and rigid policy of sterilization and segregation to that grade of population whose progeny is already tainted, or whose inheritance is such that objectionable traits may be transmitted to offspring.

– “To insure the country against future burdens of maintenance for numerous offspring as may be born of feeble-minded parents by pensioning all persons with transmissible diseases who voluntarily consent to sterilization.

– “To give dysgenic groups in our population their choice of segregation or sterilization.

– “To apportion farm lands and homesteads for these segregated persons where they would be taught to work under competent instructors for a period of their entire lives. [Practically speaking, a concentration camp.]

– “[To] take an inventory of the secondary group such as illiterates, paupers, unemployables, criminals, prostitutes, dope fiends; classify them in special departments under government medical protection, and segregate them on farms and open spaces as long as necessary for the strengthening and development of moral conduct.” (Again, concentration camps.) M. Sanger, “Plan for Peace,” Birth Control Review, vol. 16, no. 4, April 1932

But I’ve read that she was a social crusader for good.

Hardly. She said, “The most merciful thing a large family can do for one of its infant members is to kill it.” 6 Sanger, Woman and the New Race

She herself was highly promiscuous and had many lovers. She favored “free love” for women without any sexual limits but without the burden of children. She saw “the marriage bed [as] the most degenerating influence in the social order.” 7 Kennedy, David M. Birth Control in America: The Career of Margaret Sanger, London: Yale University Press, 1970.

But Planned Parenthood wants to reduce teen pregnancies, doesn’t it?

Let’s be specific. Planned Parenthood wants to reduce teen births. It is not trying to reduce teen sex activity; in fact its sex education programs do exactly the opposite.”


Interesting stuff, wouldn’t you say? Now, another popular argument of abortionists, is how “safe” abortions are. Abortions are safer then giving birth they say. While abortion is a “safe” procedure in comparison to many procedures, I am sorry, but no, it is not safer then giving birth. Also, abortionists like to talk about how many women died from backalley, illegal abortions. they quote the figures “1 million illegal abortions and 5,000-10,000 women died from them.”

Now, here’s the problem with that. How many illegal abortions were there? 1 million? and how did you come up with that conclusion? Is that because 92% of statistics are made up on the spot? Think about this people. NO ONE KNOWS how many illegal abortions there were. Why? Because they were ILLEGAL. They were not reported. The only times they WERE reported was in the case of death.

So… 1972. 5,000-10,000 women dead from illegal abortions? Let’s look into that.

According to a chart used on the floor by the Senate in 81, there was a sharp drop in deaths from illegal abortions in the late 40’s. This is due largely to the introduction of Penicillin, it helped to control infections a lot better. Now, the number of deaths in the 50’s was about 250/year, and by 1966, it was down to 120 deaths due to illegal abortions. The drop there is due to new antibiotics, better surgery, and intensive care units being established in hospitals. 1967-1970, abortion became legal in 16 states. Mostly limited, but in NY and CA abortions were done on demand. There is no sharp drop in the number of deaths from abortions on the chart.

Here we are, back to 1972. How many women died from abortions that year? 39 deaths due to illegal abortions, with what’s this? an addition 25 deaths due to LEGAL abortions. And there is no drop in deaths come 1973. The death-rate from abortions stayed pretty much the same.

And the 1 million illegal abortions that took place in 1972? Unlikely, as 750,000 was the total number reported in 1973. Wow, lot less people decided they wanted to have an abortion once it was legal, huh?

Dr. Bernard Nathanson, who once ran the largest abortion facility in the Western world, but is now pro-life, said: “it was always ‘5,000 to 10,000 deaths a year.’ I confess that I knew the figures were totally false, [italics added] and I suppose the others did too if they stopped to think of it. But in the ‘morality’ of our revolution, it was a useful [Nathanson’s italics] figure, widely accepted, so why go out of our way to correct it with honest statistics? The overriding concern was to get the laws eliminated, and anything within reason that had to be done was permissible.”

So, how about the death rates from legal abortions, and from beyond 1972? Here they are:

1958-62 – 5
1963-67 – 4
1968-69 – 4
1970 – 36
1971 – 54
1972 – 25
1973 – 25
1974 – 26
1975 – 29
1976 – 11
1977 – 21
1978 – 9
1979 – 18
1980 – 9
1981 – 7
1982-84 – 34
1985-87 – 26

It is important to note that the goverment stopped collecting these statistics in 1987 because they were not being reported accurately. Other causes of death besides abortion were given on the death certificates. Since the statistics were no longer accurate, if they were completely accurate to begin with, they stopped keeping them. The numbers,therefore, were higher then what you see.

This really is not any less deaths from legal abortions then what we had from illegal abortions. How can this be? Backalley abortions with coathangers are pretty dangerous, right? In all actuality, except in maybe a few extreme cases, coathanger abortions are a complete myth, at least in America. Illegal abortions were conducted by doctors, just as they are today. Except back then the would-be mother came in the back door, in secret, now she comes in the front door. The same procedure is done. The risk is the same. If abortion is made illegal, those are still the SAME types of abortion that will occur.

And this is copied from a website, as to how safe abortions are compared to giving birth:

“Pro-abortion people commonly say that it is. “Maternal mortality” is listed as deaths of women per 100,000 pregnancies. This figure has been commonly listed as eleven, compared to deaths from induced abortion, which are listed as one or two. Therefore, they say abortion is seven times safer. Not so! Maternal mortality, in recent years, has dropped to seven, not eleven.

But more important is the fact that, included in maternal mortality, are all deaths from induced abortions and ectopic pregnancies. Included also in maternal mortality are all women who die while pregnant from almost any cause that is in any way related to pregnancy. Different states require longer or shorter lengths of post-partum time, but, typically, maternal mortality also includes any related death within one year after delivery.

Maternal mortality also includes deaths from caesarean section. To compare comparable risks, one would have to compare the risk of being pregnant in the first three months with the risk of having an abortion within the first three months. When compared in this fashion, abortion is many times more dangerous. Actually, it is probable that induced abortion is more dangerous than carrying a baby to term. Maternal Mortality Surveillance ’79-’86, Center for Disease Control, M&M Weekly report July ’91, Vol. 40, No. SS-1″

And my LAST point here… let’s look at Poland, where up until recently, abortion was illegal. Compare 1990’s statistics with 1994’s (1994 was the second year abortion was illegal).

In 1990:
Total abortions: 59,417
Women’s Deaths connected with pregnancy: 90
Miscarriages: 59,454
Cases of Infanticide: 31
Births: 546,000

In 1994:
Total Abortions: 782
Women’s deaths connected with pregnancy: 57
Miscarriages: 49,970
Cases of infanticide: 17
Births: 482,000

Not the statistics you expected? hmmm…. interesting….


Planned Parenthood didn’t think so either. In fact, that is exactly the opposite of what they predicted would happen. But guess what? They were wrong.

I think that I can let these facts speak for themselves at this point. I think it’s obvious that all this information came from different sources, and most of it was reworded into my own words.

Your comments are welcome. And until next time, I challenge you, don’t accept what you are told. Go out and research this information. The truth is out there (stupid x-files… that sounds so cheesy now ;))…

Godspeed.

oh, and this song relates to the topic.

Zao – A Tool To Scream

“Goodybe, they breathe but cannot scream.
They have no tools to build voices.
They wait in fetal position.
Martyrs on altars of mistakes.
The martyr.
They have not the tools to scream.
They are just the ones upon altars of mistake.
There is no safe place.
The martyr.”

So apparently the pornography thing is a big topic at the moment… at least among a few sites that I read….. so here’s another one here. First, I’m going to post another one of the pamphlets from Porn Free Youth, and then, I am going to write a little bit.

Here’s the pamphlet:

Shedding Light On the Lies

This is a day and age soaked in sex and sexuality. It is used both subtly and openly in all forms of advertising, as well as showing up as the primary subject matter and focus in all forms of the media. It is what is focused on in today’s relationships, being both the primary reason for and the goal of many of them. It is a primary influence on today’s fashions and ideas, reaching into and touching upon almost every aspect of our lives. Sexual lifestyles are as varied and available as toppings at a salad bar, and heterosexuality (unless it is a very active form of it) is viewed as somewhat prudish and boring. Pornography and its ideals have workedthemselves into the entire spectrum of society, influencing how we approach, interact with, and think about other people, animals, and even inanimateobjects. Sex is viewed, whether consciously or unconsciously, as the underlying purpose, goal, and meaning of life as a whole, and if we are not involved with it and experimenting with it, we are taught that something just simply must be wrong with us. Sexually-oriented fiction is being taught as fact throughout our society, cementing lies as truth in many of our minds.


Some words from Matt DeBenedictis of PFY….

My first exposure to pornography came when I was 15 years old. Like many others’ first experiences, I was exposed to porn when one of my peers introduced it to me. Pornography didn’t seem to me to be anything of great interest at first, but then puberty hit (and all of the begging questions concerning sexuality that come with it). Pornography seemed to provide an answer to those questions, in a way that was easily accessible. So it was that I began to view pornography every once in a while in order to fulfill my sexual curiosities.

By the time I was 17 the fantasy world of pornography had become the place in which I could hide from all my struggles in life. Not only was I learning how to act in a sexual way from the pornography I engaged in, but I was also seeing my whole worldview (including the context in which I viewed other people) being changed by pornography. The types of pornography I had first involved myself with became mediocre and boring to me in time, and so I moved on to pornography of a more hardcore nature, and so on and so forth. In accordance with my engaging in more and more hardcore pornography, my worldview again was being warped and changed. My whole life was being shaped and changed in subtle, deep-reaching ways by something that I had looked to at first for simple education.

I soon began to question the whole sexual ideology that I had embraced. I went to the writings of scholars and current sexologists, only to find again and again the reoccurring theme and phrase of “If you enjoy it, then it’s healthy for you”. That idea just didn’t add up to me, so I did some research. Eventually I found facts and truths concerning pornography that were not based on biases. I soon began to realize that all I had been taught to embrace sexually was not only hurting myself, but was also causing a downward slope of degradation within our society as a whole.

I eventually started to see through the lies we have been taught by the media and the sexual education system regarding pornography. We are being taught that pornography is harmless and, in the end, is actually beneficial to society. That mindset cannot be further from the truth. Pornography takes the most powerful form of communication (that of a sexual nature) and treats sex like a commodity to be bought and sold, pre-packaged and in whatever form you want it. Pornography tries to say that it does not have negative affects on anyone, and teaches that everyone and anyone can simply be viewed as an object with which to pursue one’s own sexual satisfaction. This is not a healthy or beneficial lesson for any society.

PFY seeks to shed light on these lies, and others concerning pornography and sexuality, because we do not want others to have to go through what we have been through. Everyone on the PFY staff has had their lives scarred in some way by pornography, and its resulting sexual ideology and expectations. In that, we know what it is for someone to struggle with sexual addiction, and the pain and destruction it can cause in one’s life. For that reason, Porn Free Youth does not involve itself in the picketing of porn shops, strip clubs, or other businesses of a sexually-oriented nature. We do not see the people who own, work at, or frequent these stores as the enemy, nor do we view the people (actors, actresses, directors, etc.) within the porn industry itself as enemies to be attacked. We see these people as simply men and women that we want to help; people who have been misled and lied to by the very business that they are involved in.
PFY is not a militant organization, nor are we a political one. We believe that genuine change occurs not through the passing of laws or the siding with political parties, but through expressing the truth to people in love, and helping them in any way we can.

–PFY

The thought that I would like to add to this, is something that constantly sticks out to me, and that C.S. Lewis touched on in the book “Mere Christianity”. And that is this… one of the facts that you can read about in the PFY brochures… is that there are nearly THREE TIMES as many porn outlets in the United States as there are McDonalds in the united States. Think about that. You see a McDonalds every couple of blocks in most cities. So here’s the point. The obsession with sex that American society (and others) has is NOT a healthy thing. Food is something that you need to survive. Sex is something that is needed to survive, in that, it is how humans reproduce. Now, think about this. Sex is certainly needed… because, well, humanity certainly needs to go on… but it is needed in the proper context… just as food is needed in the proper context. If you eat ALL the time, it is unhealthy, if you eat the wrong things, it is unhealthy. There is nothing wrong with eating, it’s a good thing… the problem comes in the ABUSE of eating. It is the same way with sex. To borrow C.S. Lewis’ example… picture a society in which people sit and look through magazines filled with food and drool over them and are basically obsessed with them. Something is wrong there. It’s not healthy, it’s perverse, just as pornography is a perversion of sex.

Comments and thoughts are welcome.

And thanks to Age for the shoutout from her site 😉

Godspeed.

(note: tomorrow I will post the list of facts they give concerning pornography.)

So I’ve found a new very fun game. Burnout. It is probably one of the most fun racing games I have ever played. It’s stinking freaky though. Nothing like driving 150 mph into oncoming traffic 😉 It was just a really good idea that was carried out very well. Can’t wait to see Burnout 2 😉 It’s a shame it’s a PS2 port…. the graphics could be so much better if it was made specifically for xbox.

I’m also pretty disappointed because I heard yesterday that the game I’ve been waiting for, which was supposed to come out this fall, Project Ego, has apparently been pushed back. The big fan site that was made for it, Egomaniacs, says that it won’t be out until probly the 2nd or 3rd quarter of 2003. I’m sure Microsoft is probly dissappointed about that…. It’s one of those games that is so good that it will make people want to buy the system… so.. yeah. Watch out Final Fantasy (at least that’s what they claim ;)….)

Anyway… I think I’m gonna go get back to playing Burnout…. or possibly Gauntlet…. have to beat both of them by Friday, so as to return them to Hollywood Video 😉

And I shall leave you with a song, by dieradiodie (check them out, they’re cool… do a search on mp3.com). Here it is:

“Gazing across the room
I’ll never forget when I laid my eyes on you
And although I have to admit
I wasn’t hoping for this much
My eyes are crazy now that I’ve seen you
And time holds me in distance of you
And next to you is the only place
That I, I’m truly me

I know I don’t deserve you
I hope you don’t take that date
Scratching the surface only creates scars
I hope you don’t take that far.
And I don’t want, want another girl
Even if I have to wait forever
And please don’t forget
Never say never.

One life to live.
It’s too short to waste it.
I spend all my time thinking of you.
How foolish of me to do.”

-“As Soon As Beauty Dies,” by :dieradiodie:

What would Jesus do?
Lesson 1:

Ok, it’s about time for another Cornerstone-related post. I was up until 6 a.m. last night watching a good 7 hours of Cornerstone videos with people. One of the things I was anticipating the whole time?….. The guitar-throwing.

You see, while unfortunately, I was passed out in a chair when this happened, our group had a little incident one night. However, it is all on tape. Somewhere around 3 a.m., everyone was sitting around… talking… dave was playing guitar…. suddenly this guy and… I guess either his wife or girlfriend or something, come up… and the guy picks up the guitar, right out of dave’s hands I might add, and throws it.

They then proceed to say that they “don’t care who the hell” they are, and lecture them on being quiet. They did not believe that there are, in fact, quiet zones that you can camp at. They told us that Jesus would be considerate of other people. Throwing peoples’ guitars sure is considerate. Upon being asked if Jesus would do that, we were told that yes, Jesus would. Everybody watch out for your guitars when that Jesus character comes around… you never know when he’s gonna throw it. The girl also made a rather nasty hand motion towards jason b. I won’t describe it here… but umm.. yeah. So that is what we learned from them. What would Jesus do? He would get pissed off for pretty stupid reasons, go and throw someone’s guitar without even ASKING them to be quiet first, curse at the people who he took it from after doing so, and make nasty hand gestures at them. Now I don’t know about you, but that’s the Jesus I know.

Mysteries of the universe: #184637:

why is it that the word “ass” is considered a curse word, but “asinine” is considered to be a perfectly valid and acceptable, even intelligent, word? After all, all it is is a modification of the word “ass” to mean, esentially, “ass-like”. Hmmmm….

Just a little something I read and thought was interesting. Comment, tell me what you think.

Have you ever listened to a song… and listened to it time and time again… and been unable to figure out what in the heck it was about… like no matter how many times you listened to it, or read over the lyrics…… and then… one day… you’re like… driving in your car… the cd playing… and all of the sudden.. it clicks.

Just happened to me…

I think that it’s basically what happens when you’re in a place where you can identify with how the other person was feeling when they wrote the song. Suddenly the veil is lifted, and you can see exactly what the point is.

Anyway, this is the song…. (don’t worry, I plan on writing more after I paste the song ;)):

“And If I could teach the world to be..
I’d teach them all to be something just like me.
Frustrated, bitter, depressing.

Perfect – As if my wings were like yours
But I’m falling down.

And if you could hold your tongue long enough..
You’d see that all I am is love, but I don’t like me.
I despise me.

Perfect – As if my wings were like yours
But I’m falling down.
Perfect – As if my wings were like yours
But I’m falling down.

It’s a disease they’ll never have a cure for.
You’re the only way to dry my eyes.
It’s a disease, they’ll never have a cure.
But I’m the one whose wrong. I’m the one who cries.
It’s a disease, they’ll never have a cure for.
It’s a disease, they’ll never have a cure.
But I’m the one whose wrong. I’m the one who cries.

I cry – I despise me.”

-“August Winterman,” by Dead Poetic


A lot of the time I get frustrated with like… the world, and life, in general. I a lot of cases bitter, and in a lot of cases depressed… that line like suddenly made perfect sense to me when I was thinking that earlier. I want the rest of the world to be the same way… because… as it is, it’s out of my control. I can’t make things go the way I want them to no matter how hard I try.

I guess I can’t really say that’s what the song is about. But it never really seemed to be about anything to me before, so that’s kind of the meaning I’m attaching to it. I could be dead wrong, but, oh well.

I saw the movie K-19 The Widowmaker last night. It was pretty good, better then I actually expected… kind of sad. From it I determined that radiation poisoning is definately one of the worst ways a person can die. I think it at least equates, and maybe surpasses, burning to death. Burning is over a lot faster.. so.. while there may be more pain at once, it is not spread out over such a great period of time. So.. yeah. Chalk that up as another way I do not want to die. Anyway, the coolest thing, I thought, about the movie… was the perspective it gave you. It’s about a soviet sub, it’s all from the soviet perspective. There’s a scene when they’re showing a video about “American propaganda” to the crew. To see things from their perspective, you really start to like them. I think that a lot of bitterness and hatred could be avoided if people could just be real, share their feelings with each other, and understand.

More coming. I have another topic in mind but I need to think it over a bit before posting.

yeah, i’ve been a bum and haven’t been updating.  i’m sorry, i don’t know why… i just haven’t been feeling inspired 🙂  sorry to anyone who’s been disappointed 😉  anyway, i still don’t feel like writing, so i’m not going to at the moment… but i might later today.  no promises tho… for now, i leave you with this:

“Set out to find a love, to live a life
To stay awake and clean and pure
And never allow the burdens
And excess of this place to harm you
Like all the rest of those sent here before you
But somehow, somewhere along the way
A scar was sown inside of you
And you thought it was an isolated thing until
Life pushed on and you noticed that the scars were too many.
To count and let go because hate is a part of you
So what happened to the innocent face you once knew?
Now it’s just a reflection of this place.
And you pray and beg that someday you’d escape.

What if I told you that you didn’t have to stay?
What if I told you that peace is real?
What if you heard that there was a better way?
Would you come home if you knew the way?”

-“Twenty-Three,” by Project 86