I uploaded a new pic. It is stupid. Really stupid. So stupid I actually laughed when I saw it. I don’t know why I put it up. Maybe it has something to do with being stupid. If you still see the old pic, count yourself lucky.

hey everybody

i have decided i will write another quick post here tonight.

in case anyone was wondering, that thing i posted awhile back about the possible spoken word tour with Reese, Leanor, and Mark Solomon was in fact true, and the dates for that are in the process of being booked now…. go check out www.skeletonkeypublishing.com for info on that. Oh yeah, and add Pigeon John to that list of people. It should be pretty cool.

I started working in the cafeteria today. Yeah, that kinda sucks in one sense, because, well, it’s the cafeteria. In another sense it is great, because I get to make some money. And that is a good thing for several reasons… the primary reason being…. I get to go home for thanksgiving! So all you people in MD can expect to see me sometime between Nov. 26th and Nov. 30th. I am very excited about that, I have wanted to go home for the last 2 or 3 weeks now… i am not used to being here this long. I want fall break darn it!

I have started running semi-regularly again. I will hopefully be able to say “regularly” by the end of this week 😉 But.. I don’t know.

It is starting to get nice and cool here at night though… like in the low 60’s. I like it. I like it a lot. Of course, that means it will probably be quite cold in MD when I get up there in a few weeks, but you know, what can you do?

I have to write a paper now. I should have written it over the weekend, but I am dumb and wait till the last possible instant to do anything. Anyway, it should be pretty easy… I just have to remember what the SAD formula is so that I can actually write it. *looks through his notes*….

Have a great day.

“Love embraces me tonight
In your eyes i see why i’m alive
I take for granted all the pain
That has brought us to this place
But still you can’t let go

Bleed me blue with simple lies
Tell me everything’s alright
Cause losing you was more than i could take
I’m broken with no-one to take your place
But he’s taken mine

My blood runs cold or not at all
Into your folded arms i fall
It’s not you i love you claim
Cause it’s easier that way
Well tell that to my heart

Bleed me blue with simple lies
Tell me everything’s alright
Cause losing you was more than i could take
I’m broken with no-one to take your place
But he’s taken mine

At least when i bleed for you i’m bleeding
Even if my heart’s not beating.”

-“Bleed Me Blue,” by The Underwater

Well… today was a long day of classes, followed by a not long enough period of no classes. Tomorrow will be more of the same, but wednesday will be better. I am tired, but I want to write a post before I go to sleep.. so I am going to.

Matt and I went to Beef O’ Brady’s… like a sports bar restraunt for those of you who don’t live in FL and therefore wouldn’t know what it is. It was interesting. Our waittress was quite entertaining. Her name was Nikki (sp?). She ran into a bunch of stuff. like tables… and high chairs. She was confused about how to open the cap of the pen that she convinced matt to give her ;). She complained about me drinking so much water. She wrote a note on the reciept that said “Thank you!” and had a big smiley face on it. Matt had fallen in love and wrote “Your welcome! Call me…” and then his phone number. She has not called yet, but I’ll keep you posted.

Goodnight.

so… Matt and I decided to pull an all-nighter at club hub tonight.  the guys that work here cut us a pretty good deal….  so it all worked out nice.  Is a pretty great setup… I wish I had my own so that I didn’t have to pay someone to use theirs 😉 

Anyway, at like 1:30 I started playing this online poker game (not real money, btw ;))…. now… I have always sucked pretty bad at poker… but… for some reason… I did really well tonight.  Like really… I wiped the floor with everybody.  I impressed myself.  So much so that I played until almost 3.

Now that’s good stuff.

Anyway, I am excited about not sleeping tonight, and perhaps even more excited about sleeping in the morning.

And I think we are about to play another game.  So I will be going now.

Godspeed.

So I just got this cd in the mail today… called Emo is Awesome: Emo is Evil. I have not developed an opinion of it yet… it is still playing the first song in fact. But I will be sure to let you know. I also got The Emo Diaries chapter 4: An Ocean of Doubt… because it has the FSF song Vengeance Factor on it.

Yesterday I directed chapel. It was pretty terrible.

I am really strangely hungry right now. Like starving in fact. I am never hungry before 11 or 12. This is weird. Oh well.

I will add more to this later, maybe, if i feel like it.

Ok, so I was very skeptical of this I Love the 80s show on VH1…. Just.. for some reason it didn’t seem like it would be a good show, but I have to say… I just watched 2 hours of it, and I found it quite enjoyable… I cannot wait until tomorrow night when I can watch some more.

we did our first taping of sctv news today. the graphics and stuff for it look really good… like the guys that did the intro video did a really good job. anyway, i was on camera 3, and so i basically only did the opening shot and the closing shot, and it was really boring for me.. but.. oh well, what are you gonna do? I’ll make someone else do it next time.

sometimes people annoy me who are generally pretty cool people. But there is some kind of flaw that they seem to have where they feel the need to do like.. one certain thing that annoys the heck out of me. Other people have lots of those flaws. It’s hard to not be ticked off at a person who is nice and yet has the capacity to piss you off without even trying to ;)… and yet you have to kind of feel bad when you are.

That is all for now.

Later.

The Guerilla Rodeo website is up: http://www.guerillarodeo.com.

It’s all right, I guess.

They will have a demo cd pretty soon that you can buy there.

It should be pretty cool….

so….

buy it…

Read the next post down if you feel like reading a dumb poem.

bye.

I wrote this a few weeks ago, for some reason I decided I feel like sharing it here… it’s not really done. It’s something I wrote with the intention of going back and changing later… meaning it mostly is just what i wrote in a stream of thought, without taking any time to think about it ;)… If you don’t understand parts of it… tough ;). anyway, here it is:

“Silence.
An illusion.
Silence without,
Is screaming within.
Pleading to be released.
A tormented vision of what once was,
or of what may never be.

I looked into your gaze once,
and in it, saw your beauty.
And just as quicky you looked away,
And it was gone.

I followed for awhile,
Seeking your attention.
Jumping in your path,
Just to feel your presence.

You would smirk, or laugh,
Embrace me for a moment,
And then you’d turn and carry on,
Not knowing, or not caring,
All I wanted was to be with you.

In every passing moment,
you passed further from my gaze.
And under a setting sun,
I lost you to the horizon.

I saw your gaze again one day
The beauty still remained.
But it was not alone.
To see it’s company,
Both joy and sorrow abound.
For what has been lost,
and what has been found.
And though I am alone,
I am not alone.
I am seperated.”

Hey, look at that. Write a post that mentions Aubrey and she actually comments on it. Even more curious, she is the ONLY one that comments on it. Let’s try that again.

Just for the record, she later retracted her comment about my pic, and instead said that it is ugly. I just don’t want her to seem nicer then she really is. She is in fact mean and evil, just like every other girl in the world. Stupid girls 😉

I ate too much. I feel like I want to make some of it leave my stomach.

I don’t have anything else to say really.

Oh, I guess I’ll start this maybe:

33 days till I leave for Denver! ha!

I am really tired.

I don’t know why really, it makes no sense.

And yet, I am.

I ate dinner at Cafe Tu Tu Tango… It was good. Aubrey told me it was awhile back, and this makes it 2 for 2 on her saying something was good and then me eating there and it being really good. So next time you are hungry and don’t know where to eat, go ask her.

I think I will sleep now.

Good night.