tomorrow is the last day of classes. and then the rest of the week is finals. i will be coming home on the 20th. my 12 o’ clock class isn’t happening tomorrow.. so nothing until 1. that is freaking awesome ;). and tuesday night (or wednesday morning, depending on how you look at it) i will be seeing Return of the King! Am looking forward to it. So anyway, I think I will be getting ready to go to sleep so i can take full advantage of that extra hour from what i am used to ;).

later.

rented Max Payne 2 tonight… it’s a lot of fun, but… when you get to this level where you play as this girl whose name i forget at the moment… there’s this whole deal where you have to cover max by sniping… it is highly difficult… of course, the fact that i have very little health left, and no painkillers, doesn’t help matters any. i also attribute some of it to the fact that i should definately be asleep right now. so maybe i will try again tomorrow. anyway, go rent max payne 2. it’s a fun time.

dumb work.

i don’t want to work today. they want me to come “as soon as possible” after class… 😛 oh well. at least i will get more money, i guess.

and i have just returned from the last chapel of the semester.
i am very happy about that, simply because it means 1 less thing that i have to do.

in case you were wondering, my show went pretty well last night. i had several last minute changes due to a few ppl failing to show up, a few people coming late, and a few people canceling on the day of ;). the news segment was a LITTLE rough… which I will either not care about, or try to fix during editing. everything else went pretty great. jason brown played a song and did the interview…. and.. other then when they ran out of things to talk about (i had to make them go for like 16 minutes because the news wasn’t as long as i had wanted ;)) and started talking about how they didn’t know what camera was live and asked which one it was… it was pretty good 😉 again, probably will be fixed during editing. Hopefully I have enough to edit and still get my 28:30. If not I will have to try to figure out some way to make up the time.

now, as we all know, whenever i go into the studio to do anything i end up spending the entirety of my day there. So I ended up going over there at 7 for my show, and I didn’t leave till 3ish. i decided to stay and help ryan with his show, even though he failed to come to mine when he said he would 😉 but that’s ok… knowing how much stuff i had to take care of right before my show, i’m sure the same thing happened to him. his was pretty fun to do anyway. he based it off the orsen wells radio broadcast thing, The War of the Worlds (you know, the one with the alien invasion which a bunch of people thought was a real news broadcast?) Anyway, this one was a tv news broadcast, during which the rapture happens, during the shooting of the news SCTV news to be exact. Anyway, most of the crew was raptured… there were 3 of us that were left behind. We then sort of chronicle events and the general chaos that is happening after the rapture… i was the camera op that got left behind… i make a breif appearance on camera, but most of the time it is just understood that i am there… had a few lines, not many. but it was fun. and i got to abuse the cameras, which was even more fun.

then greg was awesome and showed me the basics of avid so that i can go in there and edit sometime this week, despite the fact that it was so late and he needed to do editing of his own. anyway, he won’t read this, but thanks to greg anyway.

now i am just really really tired amd wish i could sleep, but i have class at 12, so sleeping would be kind of pointless… i will just have to wait until classes are over.

hope you are all having a wonderful day.

Godspeed.

hi.

tonight i will be doing my show. it will not be anything particularly special or great, because not everything worked out exactly like i wanted it to, and also in part because of my intense procrastination 😉 but it will be good enough for it’s purposes.

next tuesday night i will be watching Return of the King! Now, I would be watching the whole trilogy on tuesday, but procrastination got me on that one too… all the tickets are sold out… and not just in Orlando and Tampa… but every theater in FL, although I didn’t check Pensacola because that is forever away from here… but I imagine it is sold out too anyway. Oh well. ROTK is the only important one for the moment anyway. I might go see TTT in the theater this weekend, maybe. Just for kicks.

did you notice how i went from not typing any caps to typing caps there? i did. it’s odd how that happens sometimes. now i’m back to no caps though. i fixed it.

i continue to have an annoying cough. it will not leave me. after my show is over, i will be helping someone else with their show…. i’m hoping my show will get over FAST so we won’t be in there all night. we will be starting my show at 8… and hopefully finish by 11… then we start his show… which won’t take AS long, because everything should be already set up… but.. yeah. hopefully we’ll be out by like 1. then tomorrow morning i have to head back over there first thing to do chapel. and it’s the last chapel (thank God.)

they already gave me my exam pass, even though i am supposed to have a fine from room checks, and could still potentially get a chapel fine. so i don’t have to pay that fine because they have no method of forcing me to do so. ha! i beat the system. actually, they’ll just make me pay it before i take my exams next semester… but… oh well.

so i’m going to go to class now.

have fun.

POD is playing at Cornerstone? What’s up with that. I say send them back to Ozzfest. Unless they agree to play only old stuff. Even then maybe not.

They ditched Cornerstone, so i say, who needs ’em?

the end.

I actually finally bought my plane tickets. I will arrive in MD at 12:17 PM on Dec. 20th. It will be awesome.

I will be doing my show for advanced tv on tuesday. I still need to get a few more people for crew, cuz some of the people that I asked are unable to. I also need to get a script done, which I was supposed to do tonight but I procrastinate real bad, so it didn’t get done, though I did get some stuff done that needed to be done. I will do it tomorrow.

This week is the last week of classes, then finals are the week after. I’m pretty excited about that. Not finals.. I hate finals. But, you know… getting to go home. I am done with this semester. I just want a break, and then a new one.

Also, I’m real glad I didn’t buy the new POD album. I just listened to it and it sucks real bad. I didn’t like a single song on it. He forgot that he’s supposed to scream until like the last track… and he can’t really sing too well, so that didn’t help. But even if he had, it still would suck bcause of poor song structure and lyric quality. The fact that the album is selling so well completely baffles me. I really have to say there is no redeeming value to the album at all. Sorry if you like it.. but… I’d have to say I hate it 😉

Anyway… I really like this song… because… well, read it.

“It’s New Years Eve and I’m full of empty promises,
I half pretend to keep this time, just like last year.
The band is loud and I’m wandering the shadows,
wishing I was never here.
I persevere.
A crowded room, these whitewashed tombs,
they raise their glasses high, they kiss the past goodbye.

This New Years Eve, I’m waiting for tomorrow.
My heart is on my sleeve,
and yes I still believe,
this New Years Eve,
will turn out better than before,
I’m holding on, still holding out,
until they close the door… on me.

It’s New Years Eve and I feel my insecurities,
are haunting me like ghosts, this sinking quicksand.
And then with thunderous praise and lofty adoration,
a second passes by, yet nothing changes.
I hate my skin, this grave I’m standing in.
Another change of years, and I wish I wasn’t here.

A year goes by and I’m staring at my watch again,
and I dig deep this time,
for something greater than I’ve ever been,
life to ancient wineskins.
And I was blind but now I see.

This New Years Eve, something must change me inside,
I’m crooked and misguided, and tired of being tired.
This New Years Eve, I’m waiting for tomorrow.
My heart is on my sleeve, and yes I still believe, in You.”

-“New Years Eve,” by Five Iron Frenzy

just played the Lord of the Rings version of Risk for the first time. it takes way longer then you would think. it’s pretty fun though. it requires a lot more thinking then regular risk. matt’s stupid evil army won. but i still really won, because i mean… the ring was still destroyed, just my army would have died otherwise… so really, matt is still the loser. ha!

So my computer monitor that has been slowly dieing is pretty much dead now. I think I will be getting a new one next semester. I am presently using one of my suitemates’ monitors. It is only 15″ that is small when you are used to 19″.

So I think I will go lcd.

I am tired now though. So I am not going to write anymore… and i may very well go to sleep shortly.

Godspeed.

why is that dumb picture of me still up? I don’t know. but it has been there way too long.

I just got out of work. It was long and annoying.

I get to buy plane tickets either tonight or tomorrow so i can come home for Christmas. For those wondering, I will be arriving on the 20th, probably in the afternoon sometime.

I got studio time reserved for my show. Now all I have to do is get crew together, which i will do tomorrow. oh yeah, and write up a script.

I have to go to chapel tomorrow, so i cna’t sleep in… but… it’s either that or pay a $20 chapel fine. While sleep is great, it is not worth $20.

Here is another poem… btw Luke, what you wrote in your comments in regards to the other poem is correct, but is only part of the entire meaning of the poem….

so anyway, he is this one, from the same book…. it comes at the very end…:

“On this very day I fell apart
Before Heaven
On a sandy knee
Knowing that the desert
Isn’t where I want to be
I have been here long enough
Father
I am ready for the oasis
To become reality
To drink the wine, the water
Straight from your cup
Instead of only dreaming
Of the day
The rain will come
I would like to ask you all
To forgive me
For giving in so many times
Time and time again
I just don’t have any strength left
To continue with the burden on my own
But I know
In the end
The only thing worth fighting for
Aching for
Debating for
Screaming for
Awaking in the morning for….

Is Heaven
And the friend who awaits us
Let these pages serve as a reminder
That the deepest pit is only a lesson
To prove that eternity
Is on the horizon”

-“And Last, But Not Least…,” by Andrew Schwab