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6 days to cornerstone…

“If Jesus Christ is true,
then I am mostly lies.
If Jesus Christ is love,
Then I have failed to try.
If Jesus Christ is life,
Then please, just let me die.
Let… this… die…” -fif

Ever since the first time I heard those lines of that song, I thought they were great.  Yeah, the song’s been out for awhile now… you’d think if I was going to write anything about it I would have done it long ago by now, but… that’s ok.  I have nothing else to write about, and in listening to it just a moment ago I decided I would write about it.

The song is called Eulogy.  If you want full lyrics click here.

Now, what I want to try to write about more then just what the song is about, is how I can really identify with a lot of the aspects of it, especially the lines that I quoted… which, of course, is why I quoted them rather then other lines ;).

To me, the song is about being normal, and everyone thinking you’re something great, something above the norm.  Then of course you try to live up to those expectations.  You try to be the perfect Christian, or whatever.  And a lot of the time you can succeed in at least putting up the appearance…. but you aren’t, you can’t be.  Eventually you will screw up, and when you do, the people that were holding you up to be great are very likely to stumble (“the murky sea is black / so dismal and so deep / millstones rocket through the dark / into it’s icy keep / a resting place for broken ships / a cemetery for the humble / no one’s here to make you stumble”).  It’s like you try so hard to “be an example” and everything, but you just can’t….  and you know you can’t, and so there’s humility there.

And I think that the part I quoted earlier, really deals with this being an example, trying to show people Christ’s love without becoming a substitute of Christ to them.  People need to understand that you are not any different then they are.  You do stupid things, you mess up, you hurt people.  And it’s all very true…. compared to the truth of Jesus Christ, I am mostly lies… and compared to His love, I haven’t even tried.

I think it’s a pretty frustrating thing when you can’t get a person to see past you to the One that enables you to live as you do.  “If Jesus Christ is Life, then please just let me die.”

Yeah, I can identify with a lot of what he was feeling when he wrote that song….