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By special request, I have put back up my emo pic from quite some time ago.  I’m told I look cool in it.  I don’t know.  Maybe I do.  *shrugs*

I just got back from Oasis and hanging out at the Ground Round afterwards….  It was pretty interesting.  I really enjoyed Oasis tonight… it was probably the first time that I really really loved it.  I guess in a spiritual sense I have been kind of distant lately.  And tonight that distance was definately taken away.

At the Ground Round we had kind of theological discussion, that at some point became sort of an argument (not in the bad sense of argument, but, you know) over the arts…. and what should or shouldn’t be listened to/watched/etc.  The point that I brought up that we all agreed upon, but disagreed over how it should be applied, is that… Christians definately watch secular movies.  They watch movies that contain cursing, they watch movies that contain sexual themes, they watch movies that contain otherwise sinful themes, and they have no problem whatsoever with watching these movies.  They also have no problem with other people wathcing these movies, but if you take the same words, the same themes, and put them in a song, they will NOT listen to it, and they will condemn any Christian that DOES listen to it.  The point is… WHAT is the DIFFERENCE?  It’s the same thing, at least live consistently.  I don’t care which way you choose, but don’t be retarded about it.  I also tried to bring up art for art’s sake, and that art for art’s sake can be glorifying to God even if the person doing it is not making a concious attempt to glorify God, even if that person doesn’t believe in God.  I really think that when someone uses artistic talent to the best of their ability, and writes like an incredibly intricate, beautiful song, that they are totally bringing glory to God.  Certainly not EVERY song out there is glorifying to God.  Example being… Eminem definately doesn’t have a single “song” (if you want to call them that) that glorifies God.  A.) It’s not music  B.) It’s not art.  C.) He has no talent….  anyone who considers that talent has some issues…. 😉  Anyway, no way do I think a Christian should be listening to that.  I don’t know why they would want to.  Then, I don’t know why anyone would want to.  But there definately is stuff out there that is totally glorifying to God, whether the people making it be Christians or not.  God is, after all, the one who gave them their abilities.  Their motives are not neccessarily important in that respect.

On another note, I’m just writing about this really to sort of reflect on it in my own mind…  so it feels kind of weird writing it on here for other people, including the person i’m going to talk about, to read, but… I’m going to anyway.  🙂  Anyway, the last couple of days I have been really thinking about like…  Aubrey (AlmostAngel) and her way of seeing things, and experiencing things, etc.  And like… really, the more I learn about her, the more I get to know her, the more and more I totally love her :).  But umm..  the thing is…  she can have a completely sucky day, like the worst day ever, and still, while she may not be happy happy, like deep down, she definately is, and you can see that.  And she’s like tried to explain it a bit to me before, but I never really understood it at all…  but umm.. in thinking about it, I’m kind of equating it to what joy is.  And I think the reason it seems so strange is that very few people really have real joy.  Like she can take the most seemingly boring situation, tell you about it, and make it seem like the coolest thing, because her experience of it was LIKe that, while the average person would just… be bored :).  And it’s so cool, and I think it’s such a gift for her to be able to do that.  But joy, true joy, as I see it, is not dependant on circumstances.  If you have joy, you can have the worst day ever and still have joy, you know?  Yeah, you’re not “happy” persay, but in a way you are still genuinely happy, because you have joy.  Maybe it’s contradictory, I don’t know.  It probably doesn’t make sense to anyone else, but it certainly makes sense to me.  But yeah, I definately wish that I was more like that.  I really completely hate being bummed out or bored….  I want to learn how to see stuff like she does 😉  So ummm…  yeah.  Anyway, sorry Aubrey, I’m sure you probably don’t enjoy reading about yourself on here, I probably wouldn’t enjoy it if someone were to write about me on here… but umm… oh well. 🙂

Anyway, tonight was also weird cuz ppl kept making me sing… haha…. I totally don’t think I can sing all that good.  like I think I’m ok, but I don’t think it’s anything special, so I don’t really like to do it like… when people are just listening to me, cuz I feel dumb.  Anyway, they finally got me to sing to the Further Seems Forever song “Snowbirds and Townies” that they have been trying to get me to for awhile now….  only reason I could do it at all is cuz I was able to block out the fact that other people were there from my mind.  I had myself convinced I was alone, even though I knew I wasn’t, if that makes any sense.  But umm.. yeah.

Anyway, I am pretty tired, so that is all for now.  I will write more after some sleep and all that kind of fun stuff.

oh yeah, and holyfanatic180 is EXTREMELY gullible 😉  haha… no, my hands do not still have the black stuff on them 🙂  I was just being dumb 🙂

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