I am now back at school. I have my first class since break… in about an hour. So I decided I will use this time to write a little something here for ya.
These last few weeks have been interesting for lots of reasons. There have been some extreme highs, extreme lows, and even some stuff right in the middle. Anyway, it has been kind of stressful at times…. it’s been kind of depressing at times. And more then just any one situation factors into this. But in my trying to get through it all, I sort of realized something… and that is the fact that it is forcing me to rely on God. Which I know is a good thing, but well… to be perfectly honest, it is kind of a frightening thing as well (to me anyway.)
So that may sound kind of odd to you, I don’t know. What could be frightening about relying on God? Well, I’ll tell you what it is that scares me about it. If I rely on God to fix something in my life, then it is entirely up to Him what will become of that. Or say I am relying on God to bring me the most incredible girl to someday marry…. to me, that is somewhat scary, because… what if God doesn’t want me to get married? Do you see what I’m saying? For me to not have any ability or control whatsoever makes it a very scary thing. But I guess at a certain point you have no choice. And for me, that point has come.
Anyway, I would really appreciate it if you all would pray for me in this. Some of you know speciffic things you could pray for, and perhaps others of you don’t. That doesn’t matter. God knows. If you desire to know anything… just talk to me sometime… I will probably be able to tell you at least a little bit.
Later.
Spooky huh.
always in my prayers – always angels with you
rock on reesespiece.
Don’t ever stop relying on Him!
yep. that’s the fear that holds me back so very often. we should get together and beat the crap out of it. kick it good.
i am so glad things are changing in your life.