Figures.  The book store wasn’t open so I couldn’t buy the cover for my research paper 😉  That’s ok, as long as I get it to my teacher sometime today it is on time.

I still have not written my other paper.  I could not think clearly last night.  I think I will just do it over the weekend and hand it in late on monday.  He’s a cool teacher.  He probably won’t take any points off.

However, it is Friday… therefore, I am extremely happy.  Sleep will come at last 🙂  Then there is just 2 more weeks of class (plus finals week).

It will be good. (not finals week..that will suck 😉  I mean when it is over ;))

Here is the promised post.

I just wrote this to get a lot of stuff off my mind so I can try to concentrate.  Anyway, as I said… there is a lot of stuff on my mind…  it is about like 4 totally different things, but I managed to combine it all into one central theme.  Take what you can get from it:

Doctrine of the Fallen

“Don’t take me for a fool.

A distortion of affection,
What is done does not unnoticed.
Anything but a reflection
Of what you claim to be true.

Hidden hypocrisy is not so secret.”

Hopefully it makes sense 😉  I doubt anyone will get out of it everything that I put into it, but…  yeah.  It helped me to write it, at least.

Godspeed.

-Jason

For those who may have been wondering…. I did in fact go to the coffee house.  It was cool, the whole poetry reading thing and all.  Some really good stuff. The time went by really quickly.

I have always kind of liked poetry, but I’ve never really written a lot of it… you know, just a bit here and there… and I definately am not well read in it.  But I will probably start doing it, and posting my stuff here… and I’ll probably make a website somewhere to post it all too, for the sake of easily reading through everything, without having to search through a million posts 😉

My research paper is done.  I just have to buy the folder thing to put it in tomorrow on my way to class.  Then all will be well.  That was my major concern.  My other paper I still have yet to write.  But I will.  As soon as is possible.  Am giving my mind a rest at the moment.

I will post again before I go to sleep.  I guarentee it.

Hmm… now I must decide… I have just learned I have another paper that I need to write… and also tonight there is a thing happening at the coffee house that I would enjoy going to.  So the question is, should I go to that and forfeit sleep?  Or stay here?…..  hmmmm….  decisions, decisions…..

Dinner was actually good.  Steaks….  mmm… 

Wow… I had forgotten how much fun Drama stuff can be.  We were broken up into groups for a project awhile back, and our project is to write and perform a short play.  Anyway, just one person wrote it… she had a very good idea for it, and so she is also acting as director… but anyway, it is really cool.  Just because there’s like this big hilarious underlying theme throughout the whole thing.  Anyway, it’s great.  I didn’t know whether or not I would like doing it… but… it’s looking good now.

So yeah… one of my things that I have to work on since it is nearing the end of the year is actually fun 😉  Need to finish my research paper tonight.  I am presently procrastinating by writing this and playing guitar… but it MUST be done… it is due tomorrow.

All for now… more later.

I would like to dedicate this post to starswithfeet, who recently has commented on more of my posts then people that I actually know.  Thank you.
And a note to my friends: you suck.  Ok, not really, but starswithfeet is much cooler then all of you.

Now… on to the post 😉

good old burn-outs….

nothing like weeks when your tired and have a lot of work to do and nothing is really going the way that you want it to.  well, ok, some things are, but the bad things always overshadow the good… you know how it goes, you can be having a great day, one bad thing happens, and ruins the rest of it… and once you’re in a negative mindset it takes a good bit to get out of it.

i’ve been pretty much on an up and down thing all week…. i have good points, i have bad points….  right now i’m sort of at a middle place.  i wish there was something i could do about it, but for now, circumstances are completely out of my control.  so i’m doing my best not to let circumstances get to me, but that’s a pretty hard thing.

Whenever I am having a bad day I try to think of this song… and interestingly enough, yesterday in chapel Dr. Rutland talked about this song and the story behind it… so that was cool… anyway, the guy that wrote it (I forget his name)…. wrote it shortly after his wife and children were killed in a shipwreck.  He got on a ship traveling the same route shortly later, and wrote this upon reaching the spot where the ship his family was on went down:

“When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, thou hast taught me to say,
“It is well, it is well with my soul.

It is well (It is well)
With my soul (With my soul)
It is well, it is well, with my soul.”

Anyway, yeah, I’m sure he wasn’t exactly happy…. but, it was well with him.  That’s something that I sort of aspire to.

All for now.

Godspeed.

well…. about to go to sleep.

I tried writing another update earlier but… well… it didn’t work… so.. yeah.. it was lost.

I am doing somewhat better, but… yeah. 

Hopefully tomorrow around this time I won’t be so tired and I’ll be able to make a good update 🙂

Godspeed.

-Jason

School needs to end.  I want to get out of here…. luckily is only another… what?  3 weeks, i guess.  Just too much stuff for me to handle at the moment… especially when I’m tired.  Some school related, some non-school related, but all because I am down here… were I at home I wouldn’t have to deal with it.

I’m thinking some stuff will change to make it better next year….  hope so.

Anyway, I’m not excessively happy right now…. so I’ll stop writing….  can’t really go into detail about anything on here anyway.

As much as I would love to stay up all night again, I am going to get some sleep tonight… I am pretty tired 🙂

This is a great song….  I like it a lot:

“How can it be that God is love?
When blood rolls down upon our land
And fathers lose their only son
Where is the hope?
Oh God we pray for white ribbon day

How can it be that you could love?
When blood ran down that wooden cross
Your father gave his only son
You came for peace
You came to die for white ribbon day

And we pray for peace
To flood our hearts again
Only God can save our nation now
And we long for joy to fill our streets again
Only God can save our nation now

How can it be that God is just?
When flesh is torn from young and old
And children run in bloody fields
Where is the hope?
Oh God we pray for white ribbon day

And we pray for peace
To flood our hearts again
Only God can save our nation now
And we long for joy to fill our streets again
Only God can save our nation now

Hallelujah, hallelujah
Hallelujah for white ribbon day

And can it be that You are just
When flesh was torn for young and old?
And here we stand saved by Your blood
We’ll stand with courage
We’ll live and die for white ribbon day

Hallelujah, hallelujah,
Hallelujah for white ribbon day”

-“White Ribbon Day,” by Delirious

Wow…. exhillerating 😉

I dunno what is up with me lately…. but I like it.

I am feeling very inspired in like… everything I do.  I just went running, which is nothing special in and of itself… except I didn’t sleep last night so I was really tired even from the start….  yet I added on a 3rd lap around campus….  And you’ve already seen the things I wrote…  and i mentioned the guitar and everything…..  It’s just.. really weird to me.

*wonders if it will last*… 😉