hmmmm… superbowl time.

watched the first half at pizza hut whilst eating.  I ate too much.  it hurts.  I wish I had ate less.

The Patriots are winning.  I’m glad.  Actually I don’t much care who wins, but I picked the Patriots at random at the start of the game, cuz you have to cheer for someone.  So hopefully they will win.

Still need to study for my NT Survey test…. blah.

Ok… so this morning I found what I have been needing for a long time.  A prgram that let’s me bypass my school’s stupid firewall and connect to Audiogalaxy and other similar programs.  Anyway, I finally found it…..A program called Socks2HTTP.  If you are having the same problem, just look for that on download.com and all will be well.  It probably requires moderately good knowledge of computers for how to use it, so if you have no clue, don’t waste your time… either find a friend who can help you or…  continue to count it a loss ;).

So far today has been better then yesterday….. so the days are getting better, but.. yeah.  Still resisting the urge to pick up that phone… I need to wait until at least tomorrow before I can allow myself to…. if you don’t understand why.. don’t worry… i don’t either.

New Testament Survey test tomorrow… ooh… that’ll be fun.  That means lots of studying today.  I hate studying.  Actually it’s not too bad, but… you know.

Oh yeah, and Stephanie Fountain ROCKS because she’s the first person to return an e-mail to me in like 2 weeks!  So… yeah.

At any rate, I will now go and look to see if anyone is either awake or returned from church around here.  need something to do 🙂

Godspeed.

-Jason

Fun times… fun times.

I just got back from going to the beach.  It was pretty cool.  Although I think I got sick as a result of it.  Oh well.  It was worth it.

After we got there we kind of walked along the beach for awhile… then kind of walked into the water a little bit… but it was annoying because we were all in clothes… not swimming trunks or anything…. and so.. yeah.  Anyway, after trying to keep them dry for awhile I got sick of it and jumped in after telling zack i hoped he didn’t mind taking me home wet.  It was cold.  I mean, it wasn’t paticularly warm outside for one thing, plus it was night… and windy.  I was so freezing for the longest time.  The others in the group soon followed me in this action.  Haha… boy did they feel retarded.  To dry off when I was done I ran along the beach screaming about how cold I was.  I think I scared this couple that was walking along the beach.  I ran on broken shells I think.  My feet hurt quite badly.

Then we went to various stores and i was wet and covered with sand…. everyone else was just wet….  they hadn’t fell in the sand as I had at one point.  So I felt exceptionally retarded, but that’s ok.  So we ate at McDonalds… I don’t think the manager liked us very much.  He gave us a condescending look.  I thought it was funny.  Stupid McDonalds managers.  What makes them think they have a right to judge… i mean geez… they’re working in fast food 😛 (no offense to anyone out there working in fast food ;))

Anyway, I made it back… but as I said, I think I’m sick.  That’s ok.  Today was a good day.  It kept my mind off the stuff that’s been bumming me out recently.

In addition to that though, I was reminded today of how much I have, even though crappy stuff happens to me sometimes.  And sometimes I don’t have all that I want (a job….. a girlfriend…. etc…), I still am incredibly blessed.  When I was at the mall, waiting in line to get some food, The guy just in front of me was handicapped.  More so then just being unable to walk, he was obviously mentally handicapped as well…..  and…. I just felt something that I hadn’t felt since I was in Mexico City last summer.  It was this overwhelming sense of how blessed I am… and also an overwhleming sense of compassion for him.  I felt the love of God for him.  I said a silent prayer for him there, standing in line.  I hope it made a difference.  His brief presence in my life certainly made a difference for me.

Even so I still am not paticularly happy about the situation with my friend whom i greatly want to talk to.   But it puts it into perspective.

I am going to seriously try and update this almost every day at least in some small way.  It’s going to be very much a record of my thoughts and feelings, in some cases probably very personal….  but i am willing to be transparent… because I think most people can identify anyway.  In other cases it will just be ridiculous too, I’m sure.

Godspeed.

-Jason

So I woke up this morning…  at 8:30.  I watched Mystery Science Theater 3000 for the first time in awhile.  It was great… although I’m sad cuz I miss the really old episodes.  Joel was the greatest.  I don’t care what anyone else says.  But the newer ones are funny too i guess, just not as funny.  9 AM is a terrible time for the show to be on though… it’s supposed to be one late at night.  It is much funnier then.  It should be moved to 2 AM darn it!  Anyone who doesn’t want to be up that late to watch the show doesn’t deserve to watch it anyway.

Anyway, after that I got bored and for some unexplained reason downloaded Day of the Tentacle and played it.  It is abandonware, so it’s free… I reccomend you go download it (just go search for Abandonware in Google, It’s not very hard to find, trust me).  Anyway, it was pretty fun, though it’s a really short game.  Ahh… good old classic games.  Well, it’s classic to me anyway.

I think I may be going to the beach sometime tonight.  That could be cool.  I love the beach.  It is one of my favorite places to be.  The beach and the mountains.  I hate the question asked in a lot of those e-mail things about whether you like the beach or the mountains better.  I cannot choose darn it.  Give me a place with a beach AND mountains… and I will be the happiest person ever.  That’s what sucks about Florida… no mountains.  At least it has hills though.  It’s not hideously flat like stupid Illinois….. Illinois is seriously disturbing.  Luckily, I’m only there a week out of the year, for Cornerstone….  and Cornerstone is worth sufferering through ungodly flatness.

Still missing my friend a lot… it’s been all I could do today to not pick up the phone and call her….  but I didn’t.  I’m sure she wouldn’t be allowed to talk on it yet anyway…. So it’s best that I just don’t.  I really wish I could though.  I hate being cut off from one of my closest friends……

That’s it for now… I am called away to play Halo.

Perhaps more will be written later.

Godspeed.

-Jason

Changed the look of the site a bit.  dunno if I like it yet or not.

new pic is up.

better then old one.

it still kind of sucks, but… yeah.  it’s a crappy camera, what are you gonna do?

Godspeed.

Wow… it’s been awhile since I’ve written anything here.  I guess I just forgot about it again.  Oh well.

Today has been kind of a rough day.  Wrote a letter to my friend who I haven’t talked to in over 2 months last night.  I miss her so much… I just want to talk to her so badly.  Anyway, I spent like an hour and a half writing the letter and was up way later then I wanted to be, then I woke up at 6 am this morning and couldn’t fall back asleep.  Did bad on a test i forgot about… it just sucked.  So I slept through most of the day….  which still didn’t entirely help cuz i had a sucky dream.  Oh well.

I am considering a new school for next year.  It seems pretty cool.  Next weekend I am going to go visit it.  It’s called Full Sail.  I think I am most interested in Recording Arts… but all the options there are interesting to me in some way or another.  It looks like a good school from what I can tell so far.

A friend sent me mp3s of the new Jars of Clay album.  It is really good, I highly reccomend that everyone go buy it on March 5th, when it is released, as I will be.  It is much better then their last album.  If this one is not better then their first, it at least rivals it.  I have not had it long enough to have decided which is better yet.

Also, looking at my picture on this thing….  my gosh that picture sucks.  I am going to take a new one.

I think the whole Trillian/AOL conflict is really funny.  Trillian has been updated like every day this week to compensate for the changes AOL makes to keep it from connecting.  Personally I think AOL is pretty retarded.  I don’t see how it hurts them to let Trillian connect.  Oh well.

Oh, if you don’t know about Trillian….  http://www.trillian.cc.  Check it out… it’s very cool.

Godspeed.

-Jason