What is darkestLight?

I came up with the name a long ways back.  At the time, I was somewhat fascinated with seemingly contradictory ideas.  To me, the term evokes a feeling of hope amidst hopelessness.  Literally taken, I suppose it’s the smallest amount of light possible before darkness is total.  There are other metaphorical meanings that I could identify, but I leave that to you.

As to what this site is…  it’s a blog about whatever I happen to feel like writing about.  Maybe one day I’ll actually blog regularly, but until then, it’s a sporadically updated blog about everything.


Who are you?

I am a guy in my 30’s, living a life that is quite different from anything I ever would have expected, which is great in some ways and troubling in some others.  Who knows if that’s good or if it’s bad.  But here is where I am, and so I just have to keep going with it.

Politically I am a libertarian, which really just means that I embrace a live and let live philosophy and would really like for everyone to just leave me alone.  I frequently feel forced to care about politics, but really I hate them and would prefer to leave it alone, especially as it tends to not be a domain of logic or reason.  Perhaps one day I’ll manage to fully extricate myself from them.

If I was asked to identify my religious beliefs, I would say that I am a Christian Agnostic, which I guess is a seemingly contradictory term, and so may be appropriate for this site.  Wikipedia’s definition of Agnostic Theism covers it pretty well I think, stating ” An agnostic theist believes in the existence of a god or God, but regards the basis of this proposition as unknown or inherently unknowable.”  However, when I say Christian Agnostic, I really strongly identify with the Judeo-Christian tradition and find the teachings therein to be profoundly compelling.  So I believe in God, and I have faith that He exists, but I do not believe I can be certain of precisely what He is and that it is not possible to be certain of His existence…  So I guess I’m a bit of a heretic.

Other than that I’m a bit of a geek and watch a lot of movies / TV and play a lot of video games.



“Those who know do not speak. Those who speak do not know.”
― Lao Tzu

“Not people die but worlds die in them.”

-Yevgeny Yevtushenko

“Was he a violent man? Well, he had his genocidal moments…
Or penned by fiction’s hand? To whom could that phrase not apply?
How much are even lifeless sounds responsive to our listening ear!
what Pharoah now or Jew or picture holds us here?”


“wondering whether we were
someone better than
or maybe just better able to pretend
and what better means to our inevitable end?
You know, I don’t know if I know
though some, with certainty insist
no certainty exists!

so by now I think
it’s pretty obvious that there’s no God
and there’s definitely a God!”

“You can lead a horse to water,
You can even make him drink,
But you can’t change his point of view.”
-Caedmon’s Call

“No one is without positive qualities. So when others judge you wrongly, you have to say that they are partly right but they have not seen the other parts of you. The other person only sees part of you, not the totality, so you don’t have to be unhappy at all.”
-Thich Nhat Hahn

“Love until it kills you because sometimes that’s what love does.”
-Jay Bakker

“We both agreed,the final moment,
The sweetest remedy to ever be delivered.
Heaven or Heavenless,
We’re all headed for the same sweet darkness.”
-Rocky Votolato

“Count it a blessing that you’re such a failure,
Your second chance might never have come.”
-Pedro the Lion

“Death by life is just a matter of time.”