{"id":830,"date":"2002-02-03T00:08:22","date_gmt":"2002-02-03T05:08:22","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/darkestlight.org\/xanga\/?p=830"},"modified":"2002-02-03T00:08:22","modified_gmt":"2002-02-03T05:08:22","slug":"830","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/darkestlight.org\/xanga\/?p=830","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"<p><P>Fun times&#8230; fun times.<\/P><br \/>\n<P>I just got back from going to the beach.&nbsp; It was pretty cool.&nbsp; Although&nbsp;I think I got sick as a result of it.&nbsp; Oh well.&nbsp; It was worth it.<\/P><br \/>\n<P>After we got there we kind of walked along the beach for awhile&#8230; then kind of walked into the water a little bit&#8230; but it was annoying because we were all in clothes&#8230; not swimming trunks or anything&#8230;. and so.. yeah.&nbsp; Anyway, after trying to keep them dry for awhile I got sick of it and jumped in after telling zack i hoped he didn&#8217;t mind taking me home wet.&nbsp; It was cold.&nbsp; I mean, it wasn&#8217;t paticularly warm outside for one thing, plus it was night&#8230; and windy.&nbsp; I was so freezing for the longest time.&nbsp; The others in the group soon followed me in this action.&nbsp; Haha&#8230; boy did they feel retarded.&nbsp; To dry off when I was done I ran along the beach screaming about how cold I was.&nbsp; I think I scared this couple that was walking along the beach.&nbsp; I ran on broken shells I think.&nbsp; My feet hurt quite badly.<\/P><br \/>\n<P>Then we went to various stores and i was wet and covered with sand&#8230;. everyone else was just wet&#8230;.&nbsp; they hadn&#8217;t fell in the sand as I had at one point.&nbsp; So I felt exceptionally retarded, but that&#8217;s ok.&nbsp; So we ate at McDonalds&#8230; I don&#8217;t think the manager liked us very much.&nbsp; He gave us a condescending look.&nbsp; I thought it was funny.&nbsp; Stupid McDonalds managers.&nbsp; What makes them think they have a right to judge&#8230; i mean geez&#8230; they&#8217;re working in fast food \ud83d\ude1b (no offense to anyone out there working in fast food ;))<\/P><br \/>\n<P>Anyway, I made it back&#8230; but as I said, I think I&#8217;m sick.&nbsp; That&#8217;s ok.&nbsp; Today was a good day.&nbsp; It kept my mind off the stuff that&#8217;s been bumming me out recently.<\/P><br \/>\n<P>In addition to that though, I was reminded today of how much I have, even though crappy stuff happens to me sometimes.&nbsp; And sometimes I don&#8217;t have all that I want (a job&#8230;.. a girlfriend&#8230;. etc&#8230;), I still am incredibly blessed.&nbsp; When I was at the mall, waiting in line to get some food, The guy just in front of me was handicapped.&nbsp; More so then just being unable to walk, he was obviously mentally handicapped as well&#8230;..&nbsp; and&#8230;. I just felt something that I hadn&#8217;t felt since I was in Mexico City last summer.&nbsp; It was this overwhelming sense of how blessed I am&#8230; and also an overwhleming sense of compassion for him.&nbsp; I felt the love of God for him.&nbsp; I said a silent prayer for him there, standing in line.&nbsp; I hope it made a difference.&nbsp; His brief presence in my life certainly made a difference for me.<\/P><br \/>\n<P>Even so I still am not paticularly happy about the situation with my friend whom i greatly want to talk to.&nbsp;&nbsp; But it puts it into perspective.<\/P><br \/>\n<P>I am going to seriously try and update this almost every day at least in some small way.&nbsp; It&#8217;s going to be very much a record of my thoughts and feelings, in some cases probably very personal&#8230;.&nbsp; but i am willing to be transparent&#8230; because I think most people can identify anyway.&nbsp; In other cases it will just be ridiculous too, I&#8217;m sure.<\/P><br \/>\n<P>Godspeed.<\/P><br \/>\n<P>-Jason<\/P><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Fun times&#8230; fun times. I just got back from going to the beach.&nbsp; It was pretty cool.&nbsp; Although&nbsp;I think I got sick as a result of it.&nbsp; Oh well.&nbsp; It was worth it. 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